Since I gave oxygen to this idea back in January 2015 (and only a minimal stream mind you), every conversation I have, every chance meeting in the street, every step I make enters another fruitful generous imagining of this project and food for thought to the recipient. I am no fool. This is based on conscious observation over the past few years and here it finally blooms.
Working in collaboration is a refined skill and is often taken lightly. It requires us to go against our default behaviours. I thought I was a natural sharer, hell - the eldest from a large family, living in community and working in coops should have eeked out any sense of self orientation. And yet, I fin myself holding on quite tight to this, fearful of imperfection, fearful of intervention, fearful of losing it before I've really made it. An example recently where I was offered what a couple of years ago would have been a 'dream' position, it sent me into a flurry. Helpful in hindsight, it reminded me I was in charge of me. There was a choice, I didn't just need to follow the opportunity, the fixable, the complement. When one's faults, gaps and unknowns are exposed quite publicly as a sole start-up, my shoulders felt a softer at the thought of doing what I know, what is familiar, what assures me and gives me faith.
This does, and it will continue to give me and others faith. It's just a little untrodden, a little unworn. It will be smoother, it will become occupied soon.